Stay Awake Rebel Love Ch:14

Stay Awake Rebel Love;
Chapter 14.

Lupe POV;

I woke up to Alex softly stroking my hair, my back was facing away from him so I closed my eyes again, praying that I hadn't just made the most stupid mistake ever.

"I know your awake" Alex said, his breating slow and timed on my neck.

I rolled over, face-to-face to him, his breathtaking brown eyes.

"So she awakes" He smirked, looking down for a second, then meeting my eyes with a half-smile.

"Good morning" I whispered, dropping my gaze to my fingers that were twisting the fabric of the cover around the tips.

He was silent for a moment, I knew he was just trying to find a way to rephrase his next sentence so it didn't hurt either of us.

"Um... Did it... hurt?" He stuttered, I guessed he didn't usually pay much attention to the girls he slept with. Or compassion.

"Not as much as I'd thought" I lied, truthfully I cried the whole way through.

"It's just.... I though you'd... Andy.." He sighed,

"We got close enough, a few more seconds and we would've, but I couldn't" I shook my head, "It wasn't what I wanted, at the time"

Alex nodded softly, I knew so much was swirling in his head, how could I've even considered doing this... both guys thought that I'd lost my virginity to them, but it was only true for one.

"I better go, before everyone wakes up" I said, then quickly retracting what I said because of the hurt that flashed through his eyes "You know, before they start asking questions."

Alex smiled sadly, then kissed my forehead, freezing me to the spot. "Good bye...Lucinda"

As soon as I was out of his bunk I collaspe to the floor, trying to stop myself from crying out.
Everything was so cruel...so unfair. I had two perfect guys. I loved them both, but I had to choose, and I couldn't. Because, there will always be one part of me, wondering what it'd be like, with the other.
I couldn't live like that.
Alex knew that I would choose Andy, in the end.
He was the safer option, he wouldn't hurt me.

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"Ciao Lupeykins!" Jack shouted, slamming into me, "I shall miss you"

I hugged him tightly "Good bye Jackykins, I love you"

Jack let me go, after alittle time spent pursuading him that I will see him again, and that Zack and Rian needed to say goodbye too.

"Bye Lupe, have fun" Zack grinned and pulled me into his musclar body for a warm hug,

"Bye Zackary, don't let Jack eat anyone in my absense"

Zack nodded and spun me around, dropping me infront of Rian who without waiting, hugged me.

"Good-bye my little fangirl Lupe" Rian smiled, showing off his amazing teeth for a rare time.

"Good bye best friend! Smile more!" I chuckled.
After that display of PA, (Public Affection, duh) Alex stood watching me silenty from the sidelines, his hand tucked in his impossiably skinny-skinnes.

"Goodbye Lucinda, don't forget us" He sakid curtly, making Jack glare at him.

I waved at him, at them then grabbed my stuff and walked out the bus, to the waiting car. That held my boyfriend.

"Hey! Let me help you with that" Andy said, trying to grab my bags,

"No, you sit back. I don't want the army trying to kill me if you re-break your ribs and never ever ever sing again" I stated firmly, shoving my stuff in the boot.

Andy chuckled as I sat back in the car, "That won't stop me, I want the world"

I shook my head at him, poking my tongue out, he leaned across the drivers seat to kiss me, when he pulled back he grimaced.

"Told you"